....
I'm not gonna lie, things have been quite stressful for Lisa and I over the past few months. I won't talk about that though, it's a new year so let's have some new beginnings eh?
I've been away from this place for a while, I have actually set up my blogging home somewhere else for the timebeing. AllenKirwan.com isn't the best place to get things off my chest, not the really personal, gritty stuff anyway. Anyway, I'm back and have loads to talk about so let's get started with some resolutions.
1. Lose Weight. This is the more obvious one, I'm sure everyone has this as their resolution every year, but I'm really going to make a conscious effort so that my double chin and I get the most out of life through what I consider, some pretty shitty circumstances.
2. Get Life Sorted. Bit vague, but the overall message is that if I'm not 100% happy with my life, then I should do something to fix that. Already we've got the ball rolling with Autism specialists and research concerning medication, so fingers, toes and eyes crossed that 2011 will be my year? Also...I need to really shape up my Swedish.
3. Improve Guitar. I've slacked BIG time. I don't think I've ever played the guitar less than I have in 2010. Crazy. It's still a full blown addiction of course, but I've gone from 12 hours a day to about 3-4. I've got all this time, I should do something useful with it.
4. Set The Record Straight. Even more vague than number 2 actually. Without getting into too much detail, there seems to be someone out there who doesn't quite *get* why I detest them so much, perhaps this year I'll make sure they understand.
I do indeed have a plan on how I'm going to complete these resolutions, it's going to take alot of time and effort but it'll be worth it in the end.
While not a resolution as such, more a thought, I've been thinking that some people really shouldn't be on my "friends list". Facebook is my one and only outlet to reach out to friends, family and people, such as Lisa's friends, who I may need to get hold of in the future, as such, should people who have completely neglected the idea of friendship be anywhere near that? I don't think so.
Also, gone are the days that I can't be myself on there, for fear of "consequences" from people who take issue with it. Fuck 'em I say.
I've never really made resolutions before, never wanted to, never believed in it, but this year is different because so much is going on that I need some guidelines to see me through it. Stressed? Very, but it'll settle itself once I stop playing the waiting game and get something done.
This isn't the "usual" post I suppose, more a venting of frustration with what's been happening. I hope it's readable, I can't even be fucked spellchecking or even giving it a read to make sure I didn't say something daft, nope, this one's more like a journal entry.
I would have liked to end it there, but there is a couple of things that I need to get off my chest before I get going.
Laura, thanks for being there for me the past month or so, I've really enjoyed our "essays".
Mike, New Years was AWESOME.
Here's hoping those sentiments are still there by the end of this year. I have faith!
'Till next time...
